A few years ago, when working at the Arts Library at UC Santa Barbara, I found this resting forgotten on one of the public computer terminals. For over three years I’ve kept it pressed within the pages of a book. And now I’ve finally scanned it!
The paper is toilet paper — university toilet paper, it appears — and the words are written on both sides. It is very thin and delicate, and when folded — as it was when I found it — the words from one side bleed over to the next. I submitted it to Found Magazine. I hope they like it. And I hope you like it, too.
“My dearest Danielle
I don’t know what is bothering
My dearest Danielle,
you are so precious,
I hope that my silly behavior before
your black studies class did not
hurt your concentration. It probably did.
I’m sorry. Danielle, you are so precious
to me. If there is something that I
did, am doing, or just something that is
bothering you please tell me. I understand
that sometimes you just want to wait – that is
I jusI need to learn how to be at peace
while being atand be a peace.
Whenever you want to tell me anything
I will be ready to listen Even if you don’t
know exactly what you
arethink and just want
to talk about it, I’ll be listening if you want
to tell me. Danielle, I love you with a
love that I didn’t
notknow exsisted. First of
dowant to do what is right. My next
deepest desire is to love, please, and charish you
above all others. All I want to do is to love
you more and more
and Iand in doing so Ibecome closer and closer to you untill